Joy & Sadness

There is an uncertain number of last days in Cambodia ahead of me.
I'm still waiting to get confirmation on my flight, so I cannot be sure whether it will be 10th or 14th August that I leave this wonderful country.

That complicates things:
Firstly, I often don't know whether or not to say goodbye to people. Will I see them again? Should I just say them an elaborate goodbye only to have to do it a second time, because I take the later flight?
This state of uncertainty makes it extremely difficult to get a real, genuine feel about departure.
Somehow, the days go on and I have no idea, whether the work I start one day will be completed another, because I don't know if I'll be there to complete it.
Secondly, it makes it impossible to plan the last small travels which I would love to make through Cambodia.

Enough of those complaints. I am greatly enjoying every day, every second left in this country. I'm happy about almost everything: When I go to the center, I look forward to seeing the kids. At the center, I play with them and get some last work done. Going home, my stomach is already craving the food that awaits him on the kitchen table and at home, my wonderful house-mates are always enjoyable to be around.
Our house, by the way, is greatly enhanced by the new meditation hut in our garden. Used for breakfast, work meetings, exercise, yoga, art, music and sometimes even meditation, it opens up a new type of living space and proves to be serious competition for our lounging space (which up to this point was the most commonly used common space besides the kitchen).


As much as I am looking forward to the new challenges and experiences that I'm sure are lying in store for me back in Europe, it is mostly with sadness that I think of my coming departure.
Cambodia, and everything in it, is simply to great!

I'll be back!